Monday, May 20, 2013

Loss of a baby

On Thursday at 1am i started having what i thought were braxton hicks contractions. By 4 am they were increasing and were a little painful. At 5 i called the on call doctor who told me to go to the hospital immediately. At 5:30 they found no heartbeat and confirmed with multiple ultrasounds. I take lovenox so they told me i would have to come back around 7:30 pm same day and they would induce me for labor. My husband and i went back at 7:30 and they put in this device to dilate me. They said it could take days for me to deliver. At 3:20 am on friday i started having terrible contractions and told my husband to get the nurse. By 3:28 am i had given birth to my sweet beautiful son Carter, just me, my husband, the nurse and my baby. I was 27 weeks and he was perfect in every way. He had my nose, and my husbands feet. Its only been a few days since we lost him, and every day i can't believe that he is no longer with me.

I have antiphospholipid syndrome and i take lovenox for it. 

My husband and i want to try again as soon as we get the results back. 
Researching APS, lovenox and pregnancy are helping take my mind off of Carter for a few minutes.

5 comments:

  1. I was litterally in tears as I read this. I am so sorry for your loss! My brother and his wife lost a baby just days before her due date. I had no idea I had loved her so much before I had ever met her.
    You will be in my thoughts and prayers.

    ((hugs))

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  2. Oh Amber, I'm so so sorry. My half-brother was still born at term and I know it is unbelievably painful. Thinking of you x

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  3. How incredibly awful...you are in my prayers!

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  4. Miss Lorie it amazed me too how much i love him. My family says the same thing as you. They even say that they love my little carter more then my cousins baby who is due the same week that i was. (august 8th) Mari i am so sorry to hear that. Nikki thank you.

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    1. It is true! Love starts so soon! You have been in my thoughts.

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